Something I need to tell you

A beautiful life in 4 hours per day

Photos by Dave Bullivant, shot in the summer in France

There’s something I need to tell you.
I am so much more sick than I've ever let you know.

I’m basically a health-catfish at this point.

Not intentionally, of course.
If I’ve been lying to you, it is only by proxy. The denial runs so deep its more like a refusal, at this point. Because I really don’t want it to be true.

How can I describe my current health state to you most accurately?
In numbers, maybe -

4 hours of meaningful daily wakefulness
18-20 hours per day in bed
Leaving the house 2 or 3 times per month
3 years since I last drove my car
11 prescription medications to take daily